help from up high.
I stayed up till the sun came out and thought about who I am. I stayed up till the sun came out and thought about who I need. I should’ve felt sad but I felt alright, I should’ve felt hurt but I didn’t. I know in my heart that there is a bigger force intervening and helping me get through things that feel tough. I’ve been here before, in this situation and in these circumstances of facing loneliness at it’s core. and this time I’m not running away from it, I am facing it and I am embracing facing my troubles.
Love has been easy for me to understand, but it’s always been giving up that I didn’t know how to do. A balance is needed, and maybe this time giving up means winning.
I have to be strong for myself because if I give up on myself then that would be worse than giving up on people that I promised myself to hold onto and care for.
I am not perfect, I am so far away from it. I have a lot of karma I still need to pay off, but I don’t know, I have a feeling that it’s all going to be ok. Regardless of who is by my side and who isn’t.